Well now, I just thought I’d try this journaling crud to see If I can’t get make sense of what the hell I’m feeling right now.
I’ve lived a long time drinking to forget but I don’t think that’s right for me no more.
Watching Drago damn well shit himself every time he has to do something makes me think it's time to change. I’ve done worse, been worse - hell Thelma killed herself because of it. But the thought of behavin’ like a giant little bitch like him is something I can’t abide. I’ve got to see a professional.
Drago cries and loses his shit cause of the things he’s seen. I’ve been there. Now I can’t fix Drago, but I can do something about myself, I don’t have to hurt someone to feels something and I don’t have to drink myself stupid to forget. Hell, it just made Drago an even bigger bitch - I truly hope my alcoholism only ever made me violent - can’t bare the thought of people seeing me cry like some kind of blubbering homo.
Ok, let's try to tie this up real pretty. It bothers me that Drago cries. Why? Is it because I’d like to cry? Now that’s just crazy talk. I better get a drink and beat up a hobo
